Words in the Wind

Words of Wisdom for Myself...

Words.

They can spew out of the mouth from deep within like shards of glass from a weary and broken soul.

Words.

Meant to slice.  Meant to hurt, Meant to cut.

Words that are so sharp they cut... they cause the heart...the very soul to bleed.

Pain.

Pain that in time, will heal but will leave a scar.

WORDS!

Can be sweet.

That can lift the intended up on a whirlwind of perfumed essence that make one feel they are beautiful.

Special and lifted higher...lighter.

Which would YOU rather hear?

Which would YOU rather feel?

Which would YOU rather speak?

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there.

To all the Mom's like me that were woken up by their husband and two beautiful boys with breakfast in bed and gifts only a  4 and 6 year old could think of.. their favorite stuffed animals.  Hand made cards by not only my boys but my husband as well.  

The thought behind their gifts is so precious to me.  The fact that in their young minds and hearts they would give their most prized possessions to me because that's the "bestest" thing they had and  could think of to give me that I would like.  Of course they will take them back at some point but the meaning behind the gesture is the gift.

To all the Mom's that have lost a child or children of any age that have lost a Mother my prayers are with you as you remember the good times and hopefully have a precious silent moment remembering knowing some day you will see each other again.

To my Mother in law who is very precious to me.  Quiet, calm, patient and loving.  You have raised an amazing man.  One very much like you.  I am so very blessed that he picked me to be his partner in life and blessed me with two amazing boys.  I am blessed to have you as another Mother. ;-)

To my Mother who is the most amazing woman I know.  You are strong, inspiring and creative.  You are calm, quiet and peaceful.  Who have always been the stability and strength in my life and shown me and put my feet on the path to loving God.    You have shown me that my stability and strength, inspiration and creativity are actually gifts from  God.  You, my dear Mama are such a gift.  A gift from above.  A gift that only God could give.  The first person that showed me unconditional love and for that I will be forever grateful to my Father above.

Happy Mother's day!!

... and her children will rise up and call her BLESSED!

It has to be ok...

It has to be ok...

It has to be ok that my house is a disaster right now.

It has to be ok because one kid is at home because of an ear infection but that doesn't  slow him down at all.

It has to be ok because my kids are happy and playing and are still learning to pick up after themselves when they are done with their toys.

It  has to be ok when someone stops by and their toys are everywhere. It has to be ok to be tired of apologizing for the mess.

It has to be ok that I don't want to run my business out of my house anymore because my back is so very sore after.  It has to be ok because it's gotten to a point where it's either clean up for my clients and not be able to do their hair because my back hurts or hope they don't judge me for the cluttered mess.

Though it's not ok in my mind.  I judge myself.  I feel like the big joke.  Jackie's house is always a mess... she's got kids... she's not good at house keeping.  Before you say "just hire someone"... with what? I would need to work to be able to hire someone.

It has to be ok that I am doing the best I can even though the best I can isn't the same as the best I could before.

It has to be ok to put the needs of my family first before the needs of others. Though I want to help anyone and everyone I can.

It has to be ok for me to take a moment for myself to gather my sanity before it completely leaves the building.

It is more than ok that I have a family that loves me and I love them.

It is more than ok that I have a few dear friends that I can count on one hand that I am truly grateful for.

It is more than ok to get on my knees and pray....

because it is only then when I KNOW it will be ok.